Just a quick post to sum up yesterday's hospital appointment.
The 'new lump' that I've been fretting about turned out to be nothing to worry about.
Which is great news! Yes, there's a lump there but it's just due to the hormonal changes in my body. I was examined thoroughly by the Consultant Surgeon & he dismissed it straight away.
I felt a bit (read a lot!) of an idiot but, after speaking to some of the friends that I've met through having this crap disease, we're all pretty much the same; we all seem to get overly paranoid about any ache, pain, lump, bump or change in our bodies.
I got to meet my new Breast Care Nurse, Nicky &, she reassured me that it's always better to be safe than sorry & that after a cancer diagnosis, it's entirely natural to be worried about things like this. She pointed out that they would rather I be like this than become too complacent. I can relate to this completely cos, if I hadn't found my cancerous lump when I did & hadn't had surgery when I did......well, this would probably be an entirely different story now. Early detection may have possibly saved my life. (I'm only saying possibly cos we still don't know if this f*cker is gonna come back or not - let's hope not; I try not to forget that I was really lucky to have such a good prognosis).
I did get quite emotional (again) at the end of the appointment though & I think that was because I was just so relieved that I don't have to go through all of this cancer crap again.
We also discussed my reconstruction at length yesterday & a few other bits & pieces, such as more counselling, genetic testing, the pain in my back (which they are not worried about - it may be painful for me but it's not breast cancer related as far as they're concerned) so, I came away feeling a lot lighter - as if a massive weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
I am however, bloody knackered, I'm gonna switch this laptop off in a minute & watch a bit of trash tv before I go to bed (early I might add). I feel like my feet haven't touched the ground in weeks!
I've got loads more to say about yesterday's appointment but, I'm gonna save it for another day.
And, after all of the 'busy-ness' of the past 7 weeks (can't believe I've been back home in Liverpool that long already, it's flown over!), I'm really looking forward to travelling back down to South Wales this weekend to see my lovely friend Dawnie.
She booked me a fabulous spa day for my birthday back in May & this is the first chance we've had to take advantage of it & I think it's come at exactly the right time!
I'm also hoping to meet up with some of my other friends in Wales for a nice meal & drinks, it'll be lovely to just kick back & relax a bit. I'm soooo looking forward to my pampering spa day, I'm looking forward to the whole trip actually, it's exactly what I need right now, a mini break!
So, I'll love you & leave you for now, many thanks to everyone that has messaged me through Facebook, Twitter, by email, by text or by phoning; sorry if I haven't got back to you yet (& I haven't had time to get back to many people at all), I will get back to you but for now, I'm just trying to get everything sorted out so that when I go away at the weekend, my mum & sister know where everything is for when they look after my little girl!
I think I'll only start to relax when I'm finally on my way to Wales!
And on that note, it's time to say 'nos da'.
Love Chez. xx
P.S: And no, I still haven't had a cigarette but I admit, the 'no drinking alcohol' thing may go out of the window at the weekend!!