Hello. It's Been A While.....

Well I don't even know where to begin. It's all good though before you start thinking that I'm about to go into another rant. I'm really hoping my depressing blog posts have gone forever! Bloody hell, I daren't even read them, I think I'd feel suicidal - again ;)
I've been wanting to blog for ages but I just haven't had the time. So much has happened since mid February. I haven't really stopped to be honest, my life has completely changed - along with my mood I can happily add - & I can truthfully say that: 

I haven't been this happy for years. 

I mean that. My life is really, really good at the moment. I'm tired but I'm not an emotional wreck anymore, far from it, I'm being really positive, probably to the point of being annoying actually but you know what? I really don't care! Don't get me wrong, I'm still having the odd 'down' day here & there & I'm still back & forth to the hospital for various things but I am loving my life at the moment, I'm feeling motivated for the first time in a long time &, more importantly than anything else, I feel healthy. 
Apart from the tiredness (I still tire much more easily than I did before my diagnosis & before my life turned to shit nearly five years ago), everything else in my life has changed. For the better. Well. Most things. 
My house looks like a bomb has been dropped on it. Well something had to give didn't it?
I keep seeing huge clumps of dust floating across the wooden floor, they're so big that when I first saw one, I thought it was tumble weed. I thought the cat kept being sick cos he was moulting & grooming himself too much (he's quite a handsome cat & he always looks well groomed!) but now I know; he's choking on the dust **That's a JOKE by the way!** 
Anyway. I've been mad busy GETTING MY LIFE BACK!! 
I'm wondering if I should just write a list here of what I've been up to otherwise this post could quite possibly go on forever??


So, a list. A bit lazy I know but, you know how I like to ramble......


1.) I've spent loads of time with my family, I'm including aunts, uncles, cousins, their children etc as well as my immediate family....it's been great & my cousin Ian has asked me to be Godmother to his new baby, so, I'll be a Godmother sometime in August!
2.) I've stopped seeing the psychologist at the hospital, she was doing my head in to be honest, every time I came out of there, I had a bloody breakdown, I can do without that, thank you very much. I still miss my amazing counsellor, Donna, from South Wales but I don't miss the psychologist one bit.
3.) I've spent time with loads of my friends, having lunch, having a cuppa, having dinner.....I've loved it! Considering I was practically agoraphobic for a long time, I'm feeling really sociable now & I've made loads of new friends too, I'm having the time of my life!
4.) My friend Tara  & I - a 'new' friend, she lives in the same street as me & along with Tracey, the girl next door, we're really good friends now - have started exercising with a personal trainer three times a week. I'm eating a really healthy diet, lots of fish, fresh fruit & veg, nuts, seeds, herbal tea......I haven't had a cup of tea or coffee since I started training six weeks ago & I don't actually want one. The results have been amazing, I've lost 13lbs of body fat (although I've now put on weight in muscle so, my actual weight has not dropped that much), I've lost two inches from my waist & my metabolic age, (the age your body works at), has gone from 38 down to 24. I am fooking delighted with this! I've worked hard & plan to keep doing so, I want to recover from my reconstructive surgery as quickly as possible so the fitter I am, the better.
5.) I've also started poledancing fitness again. Yes, poledancing. Some might say that I'm obviously having a mid life crisis seeing as I'm 40 very, very soon but I say 'Sod it!! It's just another number!'......I certainly don't feel 40!!
My sister's been doing it for a while now - she's amazing by the way - & her best friend, the FAB-U-LOUS Kelly Morson-Hood, (who is a fantastic friend for my sister & someone who has supported me since I began writing this blog), owns her own poledancing studio, Brass Monkeys, in Liverpool. I've tried pole before, when I first came back to Liverpool, but I was so depressed at the time, I didn't keep it up. Well, it's addictive, so much so that, I want a pole for my birthday! And I'm bloody well getting one!! Even though I'm covered in pole bruises kisses & the session I go to is two hours after a session with the personal trainer (who's trying to kill me by the way), I just love it!! It's great fun & a brilliant way to keep fit! So, I'll be ordering my pole very very soon! I've asked Kelly if it comes with a two foot thick mat, arm & knee pads & a crash helmet before I start doing tricks like this (yeah right, in my dreams maybe!!):

The UH-MAZING Kelly in action!!

Impressive huh? She makes it look so easy, well let me tell you, it bloody well isn't but it sure is fun!


Hmm, what else have I been up to? Let's carry on with the list......


6.) I've had a brilliant night out with friends where I also met up with my gorgeous friend from Wales who was here on a stag do, it was a really good night & so lovely to hear the Welsh accent again, I miss it loads & it was soooo lovely to see him!
7.) I was invited to & attended two charity fashion events in Liverpool, very glamorous events they were too & I was delighted to meet & chat to some 'celebs' from Liverpool, here's a pic of me & the GORGEOUS footballer & cast member of Desperate Scousewives, Sean Clancy, at a charity fashion event at 'Modo's' in Concert Square, Liverpool last month. I've already said on my Facebook page that he is far, far more handsome in the flesh than he is on screen, he's a lovely guy & he smells fab!! He looked GREAT in his Hugo Boss suit!     

Sean Clancy & myself.

8.) Oh yes! Nearly forgot! I've started a new blog too! Granted, I haven't posted much on there yet but, I'm planning to keep adding to it, it might not be my usual readers cup of tea but if you want to take a look, you can click here to be instantly transported there!

Anyway, I've got to go, I'm mad busy at the moment (as I keep saying), I've got a few more projects lined up, one that I'm particularly looking forward to is happening on the 19th May, no doubt I'll have lots to say about it after the event but in the meantime I'm keeping shtum! You'll have to pop back here sometime after that date to see what it's all about!

In the meantime, let's not forget that this whole blog came about because of my breast cancer diagnosis. And, although I'm doing & feeling great at the moment, it still seems to be a never-ending issue in my life - there's still a lot going on for me in this respect but for the moment, I just wanted to update you all & to let you know that good things are happening for me.

On Sunday, I'll finally be publishing the guest post that I've been promising to put on here for ages & it will lead me nicely into another post where I can tell you what's happening for me in a medical sense.

So, if you can pop back sometime on Sunday, you can read the post for yourself.

Before I go though, I need to mention my sister again.

Leah has been AMAZINGLY supportive since my diagnosis & even more so since I got back to Liverpool nearly eight months ago. Eight months ago! Can you believe it?! Time flies!

Leah, the best sis ever, I love that our children are seeing a lot more of each other & I'm really looking forward to your wedding next year, thanks for everything you've done & continue to do for me, you're a star & I love you to bits (& no, I haven't been drinking!).

That's all for now.

Love Chez. xx

(L-R) Me & Leah ♥ xx